[The Strangers came, the Remnants came and it seems all too long since they all left again. In truth the last attempt to shatter this prison left much to be desired and although Kadaj went some way in helping Sephiroth is still stuck. Thankfully although alive most bodily functions seem to have yet a need to function, lending strongly to the belief that whatever it is that has him stuck is undoubtedly supporting this thread of life still. Mother is out there and he knows it, adding to the frustration that even his unshakable will cannot break the cocoon. Having gathered that the Remnants are with her now, he hopes that their lost memories can be retrieved. They didn't even answer his question when he asked it last time. Days of silence however starts to fragment already cracked sanity...]
((OOC: Going to date this today, as it really doesn't matter what happens in the log as Sephiroth's current condition remains the same. Location is Unknown but if the crystal hasn't been moved at all it's still in the Northern Crater))
Some people, I just do not understand.
The world has been revolutionised by Mako energy and still there are people on this planet that prefer to exist in the shadows. That’s the whole purpose of this war. Wutai is rich in Mako reserves and not only is it in the interest of Shinra to start to use this energy source but surely it’s better for the whole civilisation of people living on that continent. They seem to have forced our hand in this, turned it into ShinRa ‘world domination’ rather than the aim of the company which is to provide energy and therefore improve standards of life. All pretty standard textbook stuff I know, there are bound to be deeper intrigues than that and maybe it will come to the surface soon.
I just got back from the first tour on the far-western continent and half a year is already gone. Too busy that this journal easily gets put to one side and time is short for a decent entry. Not much has changed much though here at Midgar; they’re converting one of the floors downstairs right now to accommodate SOLDIER, about damn time. Recruitment figures are on the increase as ShinRa opens to doors to people that in the coming months they think they are going to need. I can’t see this war going on for much more than a year though. Makes me wonder what they are going to have us all doing then.
I saw the newspaper today and for the first time my face was plastered all over the front, Hero of the 1st Tour. Though what is so great about ending so many others’s lives escapes me, the company seems to think so. I already know I’m good with a sword so why broadcast to the world now what they’ve known since I was a kid? I guess the morale boost shouldn’t be criticised so heavily.
I was introduced to two new recruits from Banora today, as exciting as that sounds. Genesis and Angeal. Both show surprising promise considering they are from a town where the main industry is harvesting apples for their world-renown apple juice. I remember visiting there a couple of years ago for the opening of the factory, but there are so many small places like that they all just blur into one at times. I think maybe it was the Rhapsodos family back then too. They still are wealthy landowners there if I can recall correctly. Strange how a rich boy like that would want to serve in ShinRa though, maybe his friend Angeal has something to do with it being not from such a well-off family. Only time will answer this riddle surely. They truly are a strange pair. Lazard thinks that they will go far, he’s so polite but I must agree this time. It will be interesting to see exactly how far in the months-to-come.
A few blank months here, I really must make sure to keep this journal going when I’m not on leave. What use is it keeping one otherwise? I just returned from my 3rd tour of duty this year out at Wutai and things really aren’t getting any easier. In fact it seems that when I am on leave the fight turns against us over there. No wonder I received a briefing today for which they want my consent to shorten my own leave periods. This 1st class right-to-veto order really has them on tenterhooks. What if I should refuse, I wonder who would be sent instead. Genesis? Angeal? Or maybe some 2nd class wanting to gain a few brownie points.
Either way it doesn’t matter, leave periods can be boring anyway. Endless paperwork, meetings and puppy-dog eyes from raw recruits is all that’s here, whilst I can be in Wutai doing what I’m best at. However I suspect they should have to start trying to negotiate soon, how heavy the losses have been for both sides this time, and after negotiation comes the end of this war. Certainly the end of a chapter of my life, I wonder what it’ll be like here day-to-day when it’s all over? Best part of a decade gone in a wash of bloodshed.
At least for the families of the SOLDIER forces out there it will be a relief, too many times I’ve been asked to accompany the official that has to go and deliver the bad news. Every time I’ve found some other reason not to go, to be faced with the family expecting some grand tale of how their son died honourably when in reality there wasn’t much time to even say goodbye once the scatter-grenade shot ten-million slivers of shrapnel into them. Too busy pushing enemy lines back to even ensure that there was a body to recover, it wouldn’t surprise me if most “killed in action” were really just captured waiting for rescue.
Not for me, the look on their faces is too much. I wonder sometimes if I would get the same treatment, should my time come and there would be people there to grieve for me? Who would they send an official around to inform for someone who has no living parents? Now look who’s being melodramatic, too much of Genesis with that damn poem-book. I have leave to get back to.